What Should I ReAct????

As YOU CAN SEE........THat's MY Undang's Result............
HOW TERRIBLE IT WAS!!!!!!
In addition.....It really getting on my nerves!!!!!!

THe score is 42 to pass......

BUT
DO you guys know.....what I get????

IS 41!!!!!!!!!!!


I almost to Pass it......JUST only 1 mistakes!!!!!!
WHY?????

WHen I finished my test.....there's butterfly in my stomach.......
I keep sitting in front of computer......
I was daren't to press "result"
Because once I pressed......the result will come out......

I was wondering that whether I would pass......
I spent approximately 2 hours to read......even in midnight......
although I was started my revision at last minute.....

At least I had try to put my best foot foward......
BUT........



TOO BAD......



God doesn't want to help me......


GOD!!!!! where your blessing?????
I only did 1 mistake......only 1......how pity it was.....


I was depressed and disappointed after getting such a TERRIBLE result.......


Then how about my Friend???? JACK
He went for his test in afternoon......

At First......he intended went for undang's test with me in morning.....
but he suddenly forgot about his I.C.......
He left it in his work place.........what a careless mistake =.=
So he change to afternoon.....


Then I went myself....."my solo part" ==
AND
The result was Failed....


BUT JACK?????
HE PASSED!!!!!!!!!!

Because he got more times to read......
He went for his undang in afternoon....
He still can "backup" in morning......

When he told me that he passed....I was astonished by his result.....
He get 46.....
Congrated him.......get such a marvellous result.....

I just speechless......
I Keep blaming myself......
WHY???? I such a nincompoop......Is it I brainless??? moron????
I failed it TWICE!!!!

MY Mom scolded me.....she compared me with others......

She said that:
" Why others can pass Undang directly??? Just only you!!! failed 2nd times!!!! YOU are not illiterate and stupid......YOUR SPM result got A de still can fail the undang???? Undang is very easy one you know???? How ridiculous If my friend know it you failed your undang test!!!!!! "


What Should I React???
I really..........
Yea....I'm such a disgraceful loser if compare me with others!!!!!



TOMORROW (Tuesday, 25th/5/2010 )
I'm going to take my undang TEST again.....
It is a Last chance for me.....

I bet it.......
If I failed it again.........I will give up of my driving test completely.....

By the way I have to pay RM40 again for each undang test.....
I already spent RM130 on it......
See.....Is it too much????
Rm130 I can buy a lot of things already......

It is the last chance for me to "resurrect"



PLEASE GOD.....
I DO REALLY NEED YOUR BLESSING.......

GOD BLESS ME

YOU,the girl who really caught my eye

Well....is time to write english in this Title....

Previously I wrote my blog in mandarin language.....

now I have to change my writing style.....xD

USE ENgLIsh...........haha~

Let's back to the topic.............

I think I want to talk about "her" again.....

she really cause a great fascination for me.....A sudden fascination.... o.O

Yesterday.....it was a nice Saturday to me.....

I worked in Giant (sucks place) as usual,and there's nothing special............. ==

I just Keep Pulling customers,had a fun with friends.....

hahaha.....I mostly did it to pass my boring time.....

BUT....If I got nothing to do....

I would think of her again....

My mind was full of her image......@@

I don't know that why I suddenly missed her so much????

OH my gOd.......I thought I really kena her "Poison" already......

Keep thinking of her............. :$

After few hours,my friend and me suddenly felt like want to take a walk in Giant.....

Then we went inside Giant to have our walk......

As we were having our funny Gossip.....

SUDDENLY......

I saw a girl...........

her's back looked very familiar...........

Not only that.........

Even her hair style,face and height...........

That Girl really Caught my eye.....

After that I decided to have a careful observation......

I kept following that Girl........

The Girl suddenly turned her head......

OH MY GOD!!!!!

Am I Dreaming???? Or I was Blind at that time????

I cant believe that What I had looked at.....

That was HER!!!!

The Girl that I fall for.....

The Girl that I thinking about when I was working......

The Girl that obsessed me.....

When I saw her....I was like a cat on hot bricks......

I became very nervous and delighted...

Then I walked towards her.....

She didn't noticed me that I was following her.....

Then.....I walked in front of her and greeted with her..........

We looked at each other.......she smiled with me........

OH MY.....

How Sweet she smiled.........

I was totally fascinated by her sweet smile..........

IT WAS a happiness that I had ever get......

We just had a short talk......after that I gone away.....

Because my friend wanted to buy something needed.....

After he bought his things.....

I demanded him....I want to have a walk again.....

Because I wanted to see her pretty face again...... ^w^

But unfortunately...........She was gone..... T.T

She already went back......

How disappointed I felt......

It just like a glass fall down and broke into pieces.....

But.....how Coincident it was......

She appeared in front of me unexpectedly....When I was Thinking about her......

I very HAPPY......

Felt like wanted to fly to the heaven.............hahahaha...........

BUT SHE told me that.....That time she just wanted to take dinner with her family....

SO....She came to Giant for awhile........

She might not come again.....because She doesn't like the place......

SAD...... :'(

Anyway......Saturday was a happiest day for me......

Because that the first time I saw you came in my work place..........

It was really unforgettable......

Thanks to you.........

THE Girl......

who caught my eye at that time..... <3

我心中的那个"她"

从以前到现在....我都没有过初恋
每当我跟已久没见面的朋友碰面时.....

他们都会问: "嘿 Raymond!!!!这么久没见面了....有女朋友了吗??"
我的反应当然是摇头啦.....顺便说到: "我都没有时间，车子之类的...怎样会有??? "

之前我就是一直做工...要找一个都难啦~~~

不过....我最近开始对一个人有了好感....
我跟她的接触机会虽然不多......
但...我很开心，能跟她说到话....看着她的样子...真的很开心....

她现在还读着初中三.....
而我....却一直做工.....
所以....很明显，我们根本就是很少有碰面的机会.....
我们唯有传简讯来互相联络.....

过了一段时间....
我对她日久生情....可能是感觉来了吧???
每当我一空闲....我就会传简讯给她....
哪怕是问候，寄语，笑话......短短的一封简讯....
只要她收到，看到就好.....
当然....我也不会每一天传简讯给她......
恐怕打扰到对方，让对方反感就不好了.....


终于有一天....我们见面了....
那一天是星期二.....是她朋友的生日，我也有去.....
我那时看到她的时候....心中会有那种莫名的害羞的感觉
以前看到她的时候....还不会....现在??? 恐怕会了...
我们刚开始没有说到话......我那时也瞒害羞的....
全部朋友都在....我唯有找机会咯....

过后....我们终于说话了....
不过还瞒少的.....
我虽然外表上很爽快，有话就讲.....不过我还有点害羞的说~~ :$


那时我们在SUNWAY了....
她和她的朋友要去溜冰...
过后我便和Jack,康去走街买东西了......
他们不想溜，因为他们怕出丑，闷....所以没去了.....

可是我.....
真的好想好想去......我曾经跟她说过....要一起溜的....
难道我要反悔???我真的做不到.....
我心里有种忐忑不安的感觉....
最后....我唯有一直跟Jack 和康说去溜冰
难得大家都在一起了，都出来见面了....以后要的话??恐怕会很难有这个机会吧....
人生一次的经验，为何不去尝试呢???
我用这句话来说服他们了.....最后他们真的去了....好开心 :D


在溜冰场....
真的有够好玩....还闹出不少笑话.....
大家都玩得很开心啊.....
至少大家终于都有机会跟对方聊天了.....

好过一开始的时候.....
大家看到对方的时候.....静静，不说话，害羞.......因为都还不认识啊~~

可是在溜冰场....
大家都说话了......也玩得开心啊....
不过.....我这个麻瓜....
真的不会溜.....一直慌，又跌到........ ==

不过我总是在她面前出丑......
其实我每次溜的时候.....一定都会故意经过她那边....
目的是想看她.....
只是很不幸的....看她的时候.....我就突然间东摇西摇~~
有时还跌到....
不过....我看到她都在笑我....看到她笑，我也开心......
我算是故意在她面前出丑吧？？明知道自己不会溜，还要故意经过人家面前出丑......

不过....只要她开心就好.....
我真的很怀念溜冰场的那个时刻......我真的不想那么快就结束......

只是回去的时候.....我竟然没有跟她告别.....我多蠢啊!!!!
我真的是有够蠢到......



星期三的时候....
我突然跟她告白了.....其实结果我早就预料到了.....
其实....我不打算这么快说的.....我想等我们关系熟了....再说....
不过....谁懂我们关系几时才会变好???两个月后??? 五个月后???
恐怕那时她有了心上人吧.......
如果我不说....我就错过了这个机会..........
我其实并不急.....我可以等以后再说的.....我怕我迟了一步，然后才后悔......

我以前就是这样....喜欢一个人，不敢说.....就一直拖....
到最后人家有了心上人.....自己在暗中自责......谁的错???



机会可以走过，经过，就是不可以错过!!!!!!!!



我就跟她告白了.....
她没接受.....或许....我们关系还不是很好....
也对....她怎么敢接受一个关系还不是很好的人呢????
毕竟她现在对爱情有点绝望.....

不过....不管结果是什么...
我都会尊重她的意见.....我不会强人所难.....
我明白她的意思....

我现在会尽量把关系搞好.....
雁,请原谅我....

真的对不起....
请原谅我突然的告白....

我真的有点尴尬....
不懂下次的时候怎样面对你......
惨了.....我好像把事情搞砸了....
我也把你弄到这么尴尬了....真的很对不起.....
如果我没有告白.....就不会有这样的事发生了.....
请你原谅..... :(


我现在还是很喜欢你....
我心中的那个"她"
就是你了....... 雁



我们现在还是朋友吧？？所以.....我会尽量的.....
我也不晓得.....我们几时还会再见面~

没关系....感情是要慢慢培养的....
我不急....我可以等......



谢谢你了.....
我心中的那个“她” ^^

’‘’无言啊‘’‘

哇靠!!!! 前几天去考undang....因为最近做工没时间读...

所以...临时抱佛脚..... ==

那时我跟JAck一起去考~~~

我们两个都很紧张....当我们进去考的时候.....真的有够紧张....

不过我跟JACk一直在讲话而已.....==

到最后...做完了....

JAck第一个得到结果....他对38题....差几题就及格了....

到我的时候.....我硬着头皮去按揭晓成绩....

结果...

....

..

.

YEAH!!!!!!!

我刚刚好及格!!!!! 我好高兴哦!!!!!!

不过....

JACK叫我仔细的再看清楚......

原来....

才33题而已.....比JACk更差!!!!!!!

我整个人.....

"SIENZ"掉!!!!!!!!!!

哇靠.....又要花RM40再去考过了....真的很后悔当初不早去考.... T.T

看来....我又要再读过了.....

我真的很失败.....朋友们都有了护照....就连我的学弟，学妹们.....都有了!!!!!!

那我呢？？？永远输给人家咯.......

我真的很想快点出辆车....我多么的渴望不再依赖朋友，家人的交通了.....

有了自己的交通....多好啊!!!!!

要去多久，就多久.....要去多远，就多远......

而且....朋友出门的时候，还可以载他们去玩.....真痛快......

再说啊...要找女朋友也容易了.......

所以....拜托了....老天爷.....

我希望第二次考undang的时候....

不要再不及格了......

很讨厌那种不及格的感觉........

天助我也!!!!!!! 阿弥陀佛........@@

I hate her....
I do really hate her....

I don't know why I have such a mother like this....
Like to make big fuss out of a molehill....

We had a terrible quarrel in this morning....
Who began it???
Indeed was her!!!!

At first....she asked me to go to grandma house to pay respect for ancestors
I refused to go due to insufficient of times....
I'm afraid that I would reach my work place late.....
But she kept asking me to go for awhile.....
After that...I kept refusing to go...I just told her directly I called my friend to fetch me go to work place.....
Then....She get angry,started to scold me.....And Yet,She threw my things to break.....
WTF!!!!!
I just said called my friend to fetch me go!!!!! Is it anything wrong????

Yea.....Such a small case!!!! she can make it into a big fuss!!!!!
NOW....whose fault is????

If she just scolded me.....Ok,I don't mind.....but She threw my things that I like so much!!!!!
It reall get on my nerve.....

I wont forgive her...
Such a mother........U should have ur brain examined......







PLEASE!!!! YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND ME AT ALL......

Should I give up of my current JOB??

Yeaa....I get a free time to write my blog finally.....
I already have such a long time that don't update my blog.....

Well....let's back to the topic....
I already worked in SMARTLINK for 4 months....I had learned a lot of things in there...
but sometimes....somethings unpleasant would happen in anytime.....
for an example....the carp between supervisor and staffs....

In addition.....I'm sicked of the long working hours....10am to 10pm....
is 12 hours per day....is it long enough??? don't you guys agree???
I have to work 12 hours per day without extra pay....normally if we've worked more than 8 hours...it is considered to give extra pay right???
But my job don't has this welfare....
And yet.....where is my EPF and Socso??? I already worked for 3 months....still want see my performance again??? Oh ya....how about my salary??? still RM800???
only want plus together with commission....my salary will become 1k++

the other jobs better than my current jobs....some jobs have a nice welfare for worker....let's say...If a new worker comes for job and works for full time....their boss will help them to apply EPF and Socso directly....not need to wait and see their performance.....

Monthly only RM800.....but don't count with the commission 1st...because the salary and commission are pay in different days....Mostly is Salary comes 1st...

OK....what can I do with RM800???
give my mum RM280

Rm520 left....
Oh ya...how about the foods??? it is impossible I work all the times without eat anthings right??? RM100 for my monthly meals (it is already considered thrifty)....

RM 420 left....
how about the entertaiment??? At least I got go out 4 entertaiment once a month....
I spend RM150 normally for my entertaiment....

Rm270 left....
Perhaps I will buy somethings necessary in my life??? For an example....reload cards,medicine,wax,hair spray,face cleaning wash and etc....RM100 I will spend out because I not only buy that,I would buy other things too...

RM170 left......
I will take out RM100 to keep in my Bank's account to increase the amount.....It is a must....because I would use the money in my bank's account one day.....maybe want buy the cars,house or else.....

RM70 left.....
I only have RM70 to keep inside my pocket.....
Do you guys think Rm70 is enough for life??? =\


I DON'T THINK SO.....

So I will stay in SMARTLINK for 1 more months......
If the salary never rise....still RM800....and The EPF and Socso haven't apply for me.....


I QUIT....
That's My Plan....



Should I give up of my current job???


I WILL SAY:
"YES,IF THE JOB STILL CANNOT SATISFY MY NEED"

模糊的未来....

【【我的SPM烂成绩】】

最近真的很忙啊...我已经有一个月多的时间没有更新部落格了.....

我的生活就是离不开工作.....

每天早起...就去工作.....回来的时候都差不多很晚了....

所以有点抱歉....总是没有时间去更新Blog.....

好了...现在说正题.....

就如你们所看到的......上面那个图片就是我SPM的成绩.....真的是够烂的咯~~~~

不过说真的啦....我会拿到这样的成绩真的是出乎预料了....我最起码还有一个A

那就是我的强项....英文咯.....

我总算没有亏待自己和老师.....我很感谢我的英文补习老师.....因为她的教导...我的英文才有这么好的成绩.......谢谢 ^w^

不过话说回来....

成绩都出了....我到底要怎样接下去我的人生啊~~~~

要继续工作???还是读书？？？

惨了这次......以前成绩还没出的时候.....我就一直拖时间....总是说:"哎呀...成绩出了再打算啦....看怎样先咯"

如今...成绩真的出了...而且成绩算是差强人意的.....可以去读大学.....

我现在的头脑真的很凌乱....到底要怎样办好???? 啊....

做工...难道做一世人吗？？？而且都是一样的工吗？？？

我完蛋了啦.....如果说读书的话.....那要找哪一间college???

成绩一出了....烦恼和压力也随着过来.....

那我到底要怎样？？？ 读书？？？还是工作???

啊.........这次惨了.....@@

我现在脑袋一片空白.....

我到底要怎样？？我要怎样做个决定???

到现在....看似简单的一个问题.....

我到现在也给不到答案....

看来......

我就这样被击倒了吗？？？

真的想不到办法吗？？？

人生这条路.....真的很不容易走......

我现在.....

仍然还停在一个十字路口中......

不懂要朝哪个方向去.....

到底哪一条路.....

才是我真正要走的路？？？

一旦选择了其中一条路......就永远没得回头了......